Goodbye Duke....Hello Bruce Wayne.

My excuse for not writing will have to be blaming finals week. It seems that finals always seems to be the scapegoat around this time of year.

But here's a little update. If I can remember. My last post was of me kissing the Duke. Yeah, that was a little crazy. Well, we are pretty much over.

SORRY IF YOU LIKED HIM! I just really don't think he's right for me. He's kind of one of those bad boys that acts good. Once he starts kissing it's like finding out that Superman was really Lex Luther. (That's a really weird comparison, but it's what I thought at the time).

But it was really hard to tell Duke that I wanted to move on from him. I'm not one of those girls that just ignores him or sends him a text telling him things are over. I honestly told him the truth. I said, "Duke, I don't want to be with you anymore and I sound heartless right now, but I don't want to waste your time and I don't feel you are right for me. You are a great, funny, attractive guy. Just not for me."

The end. GOODBYE DUKE!!!!

Next comes Bruce.....I know, I know....why am I still talking about Bruce. Well, he is my hometeacher and it makes me laugh everytime. I can't tell you how perfect he is when he gives the lesson. He has this smile to die for. He seriously has no flaws except for the fact that he doesn't have a personality. During the lesson it just seemed to me like he was trying to prove to me like he was some spiritual guy,....but....it just seemed so fake. I could see right through him. I keep on getting the feeling that he is interested in me, but I feel like he is super intimidated or something and I really don't know why.But I was looking at his facebook the other day and all of his pictures are so vain. I wanted to gag myself with a spoon. He is seriously eye candy though.

Is it bad that I want to give him a second chance? I just want to be like, "Hey lets go on another date...without you flexing your ridiculoulsy big biceps in front of me....and lets get to know each other." I picture us sitting indian style on the floor (not touching) facing each other and playing the question game. We would start by asking, "What's your favorite color?" to "What are you afraid of in life?"

Part of me like, "REXI! Why waste your time?!?"

Who knows what I'll do.....grrrr....frustrating.

What should I do?

-Rexi

I KISSED THE DUKE!!!

Rexi


I can't believe it! Everything is changing so fast. So Duke has been asking to be with me like everyday this week. There was a time where I thought he was going to kiss me, but I kind of looked away.

But I finally did talk to Ken and I came to the realization that he is a guy who just doesn't know what he wants and that is just a turn off. I thought girls were supposed to be the ones who didn't know what they wanted. So I am done with Ken.

In the meanwhile, Duke asked me to go out with him today, so I did. He was just extremely attractive throughout the entire date. He kept on making me laugh and I loved it how spontaneous he was. We were sitting down on a piano bench in a small practice room and then we both stood up and we were very close to each other. So close I could only see his lips.

His jaw turned towards mine and he so gently touched my lips with his. I was so hesitant, but I wanted to kiss him more. He was still kissing me gently. He then slowly got his hand and grabbed my jaw and directed my jaw upwards towards his. He then got his thumb and pressed my bottom lip to open. The whole thing was very exillerating. After a while he got more passionate and wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He then stepped forward a little bit and trapped me to the wall. I kept kissing him harder. He grabbed my leg and I lifted it up to wrap around his waist. After some heavy making out, I stopped.

I said, "Wow, we kissed for quite a while. It's cold in here." I was kind of out of breath from kissing. I kept on talking and I can't really remember what I was saying, I was just talking and he was talking back. But then all of a sudden he interrupted me and said, "Just shut up and kiss me." Then he pressed his lips hard on mine and we kissed for who knows how long.

I came home and Erica could tell by the smile on my face that I had kissed the Duke.

All I can say is I don't know what to think! Kissing complicates things!

-Rexi

The Mormon Boys

Ok, I need to give everyone an update on all the Mormon Boys.

Bruce did go hometeaching this month and it was super awkward. The whole time he was teaching, I was just nodding my head as he was giving the lesson. He was smiling the whole time, but I feel like he needs help when it comes to talking to girls. His looks only go so far. Afterwards, he asked what I was going to be for Halloween. I asked him the same thing and he said, "I don't know." I told him that he should be Bruce Wayne. Erica started laughing in the kitchen because she knew I've been calling him Bruce Wayne behind his back the whole time.

Duke and I have done some random text flirting but I don't think it's a good idea for me to go on another date with him. I'm just to afraid I'll be weak and give into making out with him. He smells soooo good it's killing me. If he knows what's good for him he wouldn't be wearing that stuff. It kills me.

Charles completely decided not to ask me out once Duke got a hold of me, so pretty much he's over with.

Ken and I have never had our conversation. I still don't know what it is between us. It's driving me crazy. I just want to know how he feels about me. But I'll probably never find out.

Noah sadly enough is with another girl. But that is Erica's story.

Ben and I are actually talking again, but it's nothing big. We just randomly call on each other just to see how everything is going. But we're both good, but I am not getting back together.

Eddie and Erica aren't talking anymore. Right now, Erica is paranoid that she's going to bump into him at school. I don't blame her.

Cody. Now here's some gossip. Erica and Cody were cuddling on the couch on Halloween night. I can't blame them. She was dressed up as cat woman and he was dressed up as batman. It was a perfect fit. Right? Too bad he's short.

John. Erica and I will randomly flirt with him through text, but I think that's all he is. He's just a flirting butterfly, which makes him really attractive, but nothing more.

Butch! Do you remember him. He's the guy that was practically in love with Erica. Well, he now has a girlfriend. This massive bear has a chipmunk for a girlfriend. She is tiny and he's huge. But they really like each other and that's what matters right?

Joe  and Heath (we've mentioned them more at the beginning of this blog) have girlfriends, so we haven't hung out with them for a while.

The End.
-Rexi

Dukes and Knights

Rexi-

Well, I think I need we need an update on the dating scene. I never went on a date with Charles because he hasn't asked. (Maybe Duke told him to back off). But Duke did ask me out. I was feeling somewhat reluctant because I felt in the back of my brain that I was still using him to show Ken that I was dating other people...even if that means dating his roommate! (Call me evil!) But there was something I wasn't prepared for, I was actually looking forward for my date with Duke. The whole time during the date I was seriously having a blast and he was very charming. He would show a lot of affection physically, like randomly putting his arm around my waist or he would grab my hand. If no one knew who we were it kind of looked like we were in a relationship. But he was really funny. BUT.....It still bothered me because I seriously felt like he was a player. He sure acts like one, and Ken's warning (Ken said that Duke was a slut) kind of made me cautious towards Duke....very cautious. I thought by the end of the date he would try to kiss me, but he never did. I admit, I had a lot of respect for him for that one. Another thing that was a little awkward on the date was that Duke took me to his apartment and of course Ken was there sitting on the couch playing video games. He had that deer-in-the-head-lights-look when he saw me, but quickly shrugged it by saying, "oh hey, fancy seeing you hear" which really meant, "I can't believe, you are going out with my slutty roommate!"

But then I did a dirty thing, the next day I was feeling really sick (hopefully, it's not the Swine Flu!) so I canceled my date for that night (I won't give him a name because I'll'll probably never write about him, he's way too short). But then Duke called up and asked if I wanted to go on a drive and I said yes! But I felt justified because I was only going on a drive. I was sitting at home anyways. What's the difference if I sit on a couch or in a car?

This date he was definitely more touchy feely. He would randomly touch my leg because his hands were cold (his hands were actually really cold, if I didn't know any better I would have thought he was a vampire). We then would hold hands randomly. There were a couple of times where I really really really wanted to kiss him, but I already made up my mind before my date that I wasn't going to kiss him and I was going to stick to it. It turns out that he didn't even try. But most of all I loved the conversations we had. We talked a lot and I felt I got to know him even more. I actually forgot about Ken for a while. Duke then told me that he acts like a player in order to know a lot of girls and he doesn't want to get attached unless he knows the girls feels the same way about him. After talking to him even more I realized that he wasn't such a manwhore as I thought he was. Yes, I am sure he's had his days but he was actually sincere. My mind was kind of spinning. Last week I was annoyed with him and somewhat using him. Now I don't know what to think.

But I was glad I was at church the next day because it was a place where I didn't have to think about boys. Relief Society was great. Sunday school was wonderful too, but then Sacrament Meeting happened.......and out of everyone in my ward my hometeacher is speaking, Mr. Bruce Wayne! Ugh......why? I knew that all the girls were only looking up at him to see his pretty features. I of course was disgusted. If only those girls knew, how little of a personality this dark knight had. Ok, I admit that I was checking him out a little bit too. But I and all my roommates swear that he was looking at me the majority of the meeting. Oh well, I don't really know what he wants in life....

But I really feel like I need to tell Duke how I feel because I don't think I should date him. He's not the right guy for me, even if I do like being around him. I don't want to hurt him. He's a good guy.

I wonder what life would be like without men?

The Three Amigos

-Rexi

You know, I thought that most guys talked to each other about their dates, but I guess I was wrong. This apartment is one exception. None of them knew they were asking out the same girl. Ken ended up asking me out on Friday night, Duke was asking me out for Saturday night, and Charles was asking me out for "sometime next week." WHAT WAS GOING ON? Was I a prize for some kind of game. I was so confused.

However, they are all very different. Duke is a real ladies man who's probably made out with a lot of girls, Ken is a likeable guy all around, and Will is a dancer (not gay).

By the way, I didn't go on a date with Ken Friday because I already had plans and I didn't go on a date with Charles Saturday because I was out of town. But out of all of them, Ken was the most confusing. I haven't talked to Ken in three weeks! And then all of a sudden he asks me out. I really can read guys pretty well, but I really don't know what he wants from me. (He's not gay by the way) We've gone on dates since January (without even holding hands) and we've kept in touch over the summer. And I feel when I am with him it's on his schedule. He asked me last minute on Friday, so I felt like I was the back up plan. I was so frustrated. Out of this apartment, I know Ken the most. So I decided to text him and this was our conversation.

REXI: Ok I really don't understand what's going on. Is this some kind of game between you three? I'm confused.

(It took him a while to resond)

KEN: Got your text. Who's you three?

REXI: Do you ever talk to your roommates?

KEN:Haha yeah why? Now I'm confused!

(Wow I was right, they don't talk to each other)

REXI: You Duke and Charles are asking me out and I just didn't want to be a part of some kind of game. That's all.

KEN: Haha really? That's crazy! I had no idea! I wasn't asking you out as much as just wanting to be friends. :)

(Ouch, that really hurt. He wants to be friends? This doesn't make sense. What guys pairs off with a girl and pays for a date if he wants to be friends. Unless we were just hanging out. I was mad at this point.)

REXI:Ok

KEN: Sorry to make you think something weird was going on! Did you go out with them or did they just ask you?

(At this point, I wanted to show him that I have been dating other guys, even his own roommates!)

REXI: I went to get a drink with Duke and he asked me out this Sat. Then dancing with Charles but we're doing something next week. I just didn't know what was going on.

KEN: Hmm weird. That's gross though. Duke is a slut who uses girls and Charles...I love him but he's just a goofy bloke. Don't waste your time with Duke though.

(Did he really just say that? It was kind of cute how he was warning me about Duke because that meaned he cared. (But I already knew Duke was a slut). But I was also furious that ken was telling me about what he thought about his roommates. Who does he think he is? It's like he doesn't want me to go out with them and yet he just wants to be 'friends' with me. I am not interested in Duke at all, but Charles is really nice but I probably wouldn't go anywhere with him. But I had to show Ken that I was looking at my options. The whole thing was Grrr!)

REXI: Wow well I don't know how to take that. Duke has been working out with me and helping me and Charles is cool. I don't think you should give me advice.

KEN: That's my opinion. Not my advice. You're free to do whatev :)

(At this point, I didn't know what to say. I was stuck. He was giving me the vibe that he didn't care what I did. Either he actually doesn't care what I do, or he's trying to hide his feelings from me. I just want to know what he wants. But it took me forever to figure out what to text next and then my phone started to buzz....)

KEN: Well nice talkin to you. Maybe I'll hear from you again next semester!

(What! He knows we haven't really been hanging out like we both thought we would. But he's been giving me the hints that he's interested in other girls. Why is he blaming this on me. I didn't go away. I'm the type of girl who encourages a guy by texting him or hanging out with him before devo, but he hasn't asked me to do anything with him. I'm not the type of girl to ask a guy out on a date. Call me old fashioned.)

REXI: What is that supposed to mean?

KEN: Just like we hang out one time and then i never hear from you after that.

(I'm not going to ask you out on a date! And you were completely giving me the cold shoulder at devo!)

REXI: I thought you were doing that to me. But can we talk about this later?

(I wanted to have this conversation in person, not through text)

KEN: Sure thing. I'm not mad or anything just so you know :)

(I'm mad!)

REXI: Ok, well I hope you have a nice day.

So now, I don't know what to do about the whole thing. I'm not sure if Ken will tell Duke and Charles that they've all been asking out the same girl or if Ken will keep this his secret. I really just want to tell Ken upfront. "What do you want from me? Do you want to be friends or something more? I'm not looking for a relationship or anything, but I just want to know what you are thinking?!?!" I want to go on a date with Duke just to make Ken jealous. But I'm not sure if that will even make him jealous cause he just wants to be 'friends.' I just don't know what type of guy would ask out a girl if he wasn't interested in her. That's how it works right?

But, this should be an interesting week. We'll see how the dates go.

Heck, for all I know the three amigos could just all back out!

Dating Whore

Rexi

I feel terrible. Ben and I aren't talking anymore. We finally had a little DTR and it killed me to tell him how I felt. I like Ben a lot, but I don't feel I could ever love him (P.S. I've never been in love). He's still in Washington and it's not that I can't handle long distant relationships it's because I'm obviously not crazy enough for him in order to keep this relationship going. I'm dating around and he won't. I told him how guilty I was feeling. Ugh.....it's so frustrating because he sends me cute text messages during my boring classes. He'll text, "Just thinking about you, Babe." or "You make me so happy even though we're far away." I was crying as we were having our conversation on the phone. He knew our relationship was balancing on a tight rope. I said, "If I wanted this relationship to work out, I would let it. I just feel that I am your first priority. You would do anything for me and you're always there for me, but I'm not there for you. My priorities are different from yours and it's not fair to you." I could tell from his tone of voice that he was sad. But surprisingly he wasn't mad at me. He understood and he told me that he would move on. But then he said, "Rexi, but before you go, I just wanted to let you know that you are the only girl that........." Stop. I didn't want to hear what he had to say. I interrupted him and told him that it would be best if I didn't know. It wouldn't solve anything if he told me. He said, "You're right. I don't know what I was thinking." Then we said goodbye and I cried myself to sleep.

I thought I was going to be very depressed the day after, but I wasn't. I was sad when I woke up, but once I went to class I was in my own little routine at school. Everytime I thought of Ben it hurt me. I still have feelings for him but if I know the answer, I'm just wasting his time. But my day got a little bit better when Duke decided to ask me out on a little mini date. Now, you don't know who Duke is, but he is in fact Ken's roommate! Ken has no idea that Duke asked for my number and we've been texting each other for the past week. I don't think Duke knows that Ken and I used to have a thing.

There are only two things that might be going on: 1) Ken isn't interested in me and told Duke that I was free game OR 2) Duke has no idea Ken and I had a thing (it sounds like Duke and Ken don't talk very much)

But this is the worst part. I'm not even interested in Duke. He's a real ladies man and he thinks he's God's gift to women. The only reason why I went out with him is because I wanted to show Ken that I was dating other guys. But since Ken and Duke don't talk very much I don't think that Ken knows about it.

Then there's Charles who is also Ken's roommate and he just invited me to go dancing with him tonight! (I have to hurry and finish this because I have to start getting ready) The thing is that Ken was gone this past weekend, so he didn't know that I was hanging out with Duke and Charles. I really don't think their apartment talks to each other. It seems like all those guys just do their own thing and they don't talk about their dates.....but..maybe not. Maybe they're playing some big joke on me. Is this a test?

But today Ken sent me a little message saying, "How are by the way? I haven't seen you at all it seems like since the semester started!" WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN? He hasn't talked to me in weeks and has clearly given me the hint that he's not interested and then he acts like I'm the one not interested in him! He's seriously so confusing. But I'm going to go to that dance with Charles tonight. It's not a date, but Charles was really wanting me to show up. We'll see how tonight turns up. I wonder if Ken would be there at the dance (I doubt it, Ken never told me he liked to dance).

Maybe this whole thing is a bad idea. I'm pretty much using Ken's roommates. eeeek.

I think I am a dating whore.