Saturday, November 28, 2009

Bad Romance

I am thinking when I get home from Thanksgiving break I am going to end it with John. It is a little sad, but I am pretty sure that I just like being single and dating around. Hopefully that isn't bad.

I have a crush on another guy anyway. Isn't that a little sad that I don't need any mourning time for John? I just really am not feeling it, and I might as well go out with someone that I actually like.
The guys name is Jack. He has nice hands, he is tall, he makes me laugh, and he isn't a guy who flirts with every girl he knows. I just kind of like him. :) We will see what happens here though...we only have a couple more weeks of this semester. There is always next semester though and then he will be around for summer but I won't.

Anyways, Thanksgiving has been fun. I love when I get to go home and veg and eat and sleep. Basically I wish I could just be lazy more often.

I hope all is well for all of you!


Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving!

I know every girl is thinking it, but they are just to embarrassed to say it in front of an audience.

I am grateful for TAMPONS!

Greatest invention in the world.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Guilty Pleasure

I know it has been ages since I've updated on my life. I am quite sorry about this. School can just take over and then before you know it time flies.

So I guess I am dating know Heaths roommate? Crazy, I know. It must've been the back scratch I gave him the first Sunday at Church....

Here is pretty much what happened-

John asked me out about two weeks ago to go shooting. I was so excited because I have never been shooting before and I was looking forward to feeling the power of holding a gun and actually shooting it at a target (and for John to get nice and close showing me how its done).
The anticipation was almost unbearable for the couple of hours before he got to my house. Rexi and my other roommates helped me pick out something to wear and I am pretty sure I changed about 20 times trying to find the perfect outfit. I mean what do you wear to shooting? I wanted to look good, but not like I was some high maintenance girl (not like there is anything wrong with one of those types of girls...I am just not like that). Finally I found something that I liked and then all I had to do was wait for him to get there. That was when I started asking the questions like: "crap, what if we don't have anything to talk about on the way up there?" "should I not answer the door and have one of my roommates invite him in and make him wait?" "what if I make a complete fool of myself by not being able to shoot a gun?" I hate when I over think things.
He picked me up, the car ride up was fine we talked the whole time without any awkwardness, he taught me how to shoot (he smelt amazing as he stood close behind me holding my hands the right way on the gun), when we got back he bought me some hot chocolate and we talked for about two hours, then he brought me home and left.
That night we texted until about four am and he asked me out again.

We went on about four dates and then finally kissed. We could've kissed probably after the second date, but I sort of like making the boys crazy by taunting them. It just makes it that much better when it finally does happen.
The kiss was awesome. We had just gone hot tubbing and we were going back to his car and he just pinned me on the side of his car. It was hot and actually not that long but it was enough to make me want more. When we got back to his place we turned on a movie, I can't remember what it was but it doesn't really matter. That was probably one of the best make out sessions I have ever had. When he took me home that night I was extremely twitterpaited.

We've been dating for about a week, but I am just not feeling it any more. Yes, I like the attention and the texts and having someone to be with. But I am not liking this commitment to one person. I still want to go on other dates and he doesn't want me to. I don't like it, so I am thinking I need to end it.

Should I stay with him? There are like three other guys that I really want to go out with right now.

Sometimes it is way hard being the girl.


Saturday, November 14, 2009



I can't believe it! Everything is changing so fast. So Duke has been asking to be with me like everyday this week. There was a time where I thought he was going to kiss me, but I kind of looked away.

But I finally did talk to Ken and I came to the realization that he is a guy who just doesn't know what he wants and that is just a turn off. I thought girls were supposed to be the ones who didn't know what they wanted. So I am done with Ken.

In the meanwhile, Duke asked me to go out with him today, so I did. He was just extremely attractive throughout the entire date. He kept on making me laugh and I loved it how spontaneous he was. We were sitting down on a piano bench in a small practice room and then we both stood up and we were very close to each other. So close I could only see his lips.

His jaw turned towards mine and he so gently touched my lips with his. I was so hesitant, but I wanted to kiss him more. He was still kissing me gently. He then slowly got his hand and grabbed my jaw and directed my jaw upwards towards his. He then got his thumb and pressed my bottom lip to open. The whole thing was very exillerating. After a while he got more passionate and wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He then stepped forward a little bit and trapped me to the wall. I kept kissing him harder. He grabbed my leg and I lifted it up to wrap around his waist. After some heavy making out, I stopped.

I said, "Wow, we kissed for quite a while. It's cold in here." I was kind of out of breath from kissing. I kept on talking and I can't really remember what I was saying, I was just talking and he was talking back. But then all of a sudden he interrupted me and said, "Just shut up and kiss me." Then he pressed his lips hard on mine and we kissed for who knows how long.

I came home and Erica could tell by the smile on my face that I had kissed the Duke.

All I can say is I don't know what to think! Kissing complicates things!


Wednesday, November 4, 2009

The Mormon Boys

Ok, I need to give everyone an update on all the Mormon Boys.

Bruce did go hometeaching this month and it was super awkward. The whole time he was teaching, I was just nodding my head as he was giving the lesson. He was smiling the whole time, but I feel like he needs help when it comes to talking to girls. His looks only go so far. Afterwards, he asked what I was going to be for Halloween. I asked him the same thing and he said, "I don't know." I told him that he should be Bruce Wayne. Erica started laughing in the kitchen because she knew I've been calling him Bruce Wayne behind his back the whole time.

Duke and I have done some random text flirting but I don't think it's a good idea for me to go on another date with him. I'm just to afraid I'll be weak and give into making out with him. He smells soooo good it's killing me. If he knows what's good for him he wouldn't be wearing that stuff. It kills me.

Charles completely decided not to ask me out once Duke got a hold of me, so pretty much he's over with.

Ken and I have never had our conversation. I still don't know what it is between us. It's driving me crazy. I just want to know how he feels about me. But I'll probably never find out.

Noah sadly enough is with another girl. But that is Erica's story.

Ben and I are actually talking again, but it's nothing big. We just randomly call on each other just to see how everything is going. But we're both good, but I am not getting back together.

Eddie and Erica aren't talking anymore. Right now, Erica is paranoid that she's going to bump into him at school. I don't blame her.

Cody. Now here's some gossip. Erica and Cody were cuddling on the couch on Halloween night. I can't blame them. She was dressed up as cat woman and he was dressed up as batman. It was a perfect fit. Right? Too bad he's short.

John. Erica and I will randomly flirt with him through text, but I think that's all he is. He's just a flirting butterfly, which makes him really attractive, but nothing more.

Butch! Do you remember him. He's the guy that was practically in love with Erica. Well, he now has a girlfriend. This massive bear has a chipmunk for a girlfriend. She is tiny and he's huge. But they really like each other and that's what matters right?

Joe  and Heath (we've mentioned them more at the beginning of this blog) have girlfriends, so we haven't hung out with them for a while.

The End.